snorfed at
8:55 PM
Oh man, I'm so fucking pissed. Plus I detest that word. Why can't people take a bit more responsibility and like do things on time.
phone calls into the night,
I swing a punch in his face.
the receiver hangs in the air,
"hello? Is anyone there?"
Crackling is heard in the line,
goo oozes out of the mouthpiece.
Five lights flashes and flickers,
But the line is dead?
Fiery anger bursts the dams of control.
He tosses and turns in his bed
A dim glow lights his F-ing face.
Keep dreaming, you asshole.
across the dinner table,
a war is fought.
silence is kept as daggers fly.
Forks and spoons hide under the table.
A simple exchange of words.
A simple dinner
A simple night out
A simple life?
Oh crap, now i got to go read up on Descartes. byebye.
snorfed at
11:53 PM
Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven
Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please
Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven
Oh my god, this song totally rocks. Thanks cassie! Haha..I think its the prolonged rainy season. I've taken to thinking a lot. Is too much introspection bad? Or does it help to solve some ideas I've been toying with? I mean, my life is good, I've got great friends, I'm getting along fine with mom and sis, I'm not far behind in school, I'm healthy. Still, there's this weird gnawing feeling within me. Especially on rainy nights.
I love rainy days when we are stuck indoors. I'll recline on my sofa and stare out of the window watching the rain fall in such hypnotising rhythms. Funny habit, I listen to chinese songs when its raining. Most songs are so nice and soothing. The soul needs relaxation.
I don't think I'm a fake person, am I? I try to treat people as sincerely as I can. I'm fricking gullible. I like to think that everyone is innately good. What are real friends? Is it sad that I don't have like a guy buddy whom I've known all my life?
I've been lying to myself for years now it seems. I'm not a social person. I'm afraid of being alone. And yet, I'm a loner. Where exists the person whom I can confide in? Herein lies the problem. How would I know that that person exists? This is not a cry for help. I'm looking for my self.
Different wavelengths puts me on a different plane from the others. On the occasion that the planes cross, I click. Its tiring to maintain that level with others. But to fight loneliness, I will keep that up.
I stopped being a child long ago. Be strong. Look after people around you. Be a man. Protect your family. Piece by piece, I built my armour up around me. Everyone has that protective nature. Kinks may appear, but we let it peer. That is such as life. Never ask who is ther to look after you. Look after yourself. Help may not be given when you need it the most. Friends and family? Stay that way. Ashes when fires roar, dust when wind blows. The demands of life saps energy. Replenish that. Sleep, meditation, prayer? Who am I to pray to? The Good? Ideas which I can't accept. Accept my self. Change.
The fan is whirring, a breeze swirls around the room.
A boy is crying, tears hit the floor around him.
The night is calling, slience permeates the air.
Am I still sleeping? The question just hangs there.
snorfed at
11:58 PM
Its been so long since I last blogged. Didn't expect school to be such killer from even the first day.
Its nice to be back in school again, but we are so busy now that we hardly have time to chill. Everyone is busy mugging and doing homework, even slackers like me is mugging in advance. Plus my days are rather packed with wushu training on mon, wed, fri. I'm usually so dead tired that I can't do anything. Luckily friends are always there to help out.
Life is so not fun at times. I got scratched by the binding of the chem notes. Real dumb. The worst happened yesterday during training.
I came back from the toilet and picked up my broadsword. Then within 5 minutes, Luther whipped around as we were all turning and *BANG* my finger got sliced! I was like "AHHH!!!" and grabbed my lefty. Blood oozed out but had a consistency like water. There was some amount of blood but I thought that maybe he just sliced through a huge patch of skin. Only after I went to the toilet to flush the cut that I saw he actually cut my finger with a flapping bit of flesh attached.
I got so freaked out. He passed me a bit of toilet paper which i used to hold the cut closed. Chinyong came in with a plaster and luther was like "eh plaster no use now leh." If I weren't the one hurt, I'd be laughing. LOL.
Think I sat in the toilet for like 10 minutes. Totally freaked out. Then when I was able to walk, Mrs tay went with me to the doctor's. All he did was clean it and bandage. But the bandage was so sucky, when I woke up this morining, it was gone. So i fashioned my own one.
Now looking at the cut, I think I over-reacted by going all white. Haha..First time my finger got split in my 17 years can't blame me right...haha..
Read a friend's blog, saw a particular line and am now damn sian-ed. But its ok. I got time, I got things to do, I'll just keep it at the back of my mind for now..at least till winds of change blow across the land..
P.S. It sucks typing without lefty index, but at least I can still write..cheers..
snorfed at
5:10 PM
YAY!! Had a great time at Qiang-ge's place where we counted down to the new year!! Welcome 2007!! Goodbye 2006. It's been a great year.
1)I made tons of great new friends this year. We've only met this year and yet it seems that we've known each other for sometime. We mug together and party together!! Really lucky to be in the fun-nest class in MJC!!
2)I got my wish and formed a band. Although we aren't really good yet, I know that we'll get there someday.
3)I didn't lose touch with my old friends. We still meet up to talk cock, sing song, play mahjong. Which is really great!!
4)I didn't fight that much with my sister this year!! Haha..
5)I passed my promos. Barely..LOL..
6)I got over my stage fright. I no longer quake on stage!!
and there's so much more that I'm thankful for.
New year's resolution(s):
1)I shall stop falling asleep in lectures no matter how boring the lecturer is.
2)I shall complete my homework each day(if the mugger club thingy is setup-ed)
3)I shall stop copying homework.
4)I shall learn to control my emotions better so I no longer display everything I feel on my face.
5)I shall not be affected by bitchy-ness and assholey-ness.
Lets hope that these are attainable. LOL..and just maybe I'll be able to figure out whether its a yes or a no..LOL!!!!
Story time!!
Yesterday was spent at Qiang-ge's place where we went after our cip stint at toa payoh HDB hub mall. Not sure if I have updated about the cip. Another story bah. The rest went off earlier to prepare the food for the steamboat, leaving tsz, siok, sarly and I, cause we had to do a last appeal to the public for donations.
I was feeling abit sick at that time, so when there was wind, I'd get super cold. Tsz was nice enough to lend me her jacket to like warm my arms or something. We took a bus to potong pasir mrt stn. On the bus, I pretended to be asleep while tsz and siok were like engaged in a conversation by an intresting auntie. Haha!!
Then we took MRT down to Punggol and changed to the LRT. Like total sua koos, we stared out of the windows of the LRT as it went along. Total intresting-ness, qiang's stop is Meridian!! LOL!!
As we were about to go to qiang's house, something happened. Not going to say what, but its wrong!! Wrong!!!
Then very soon, everyone arrived le. So we started our steamboat party!! The food was sooooo goooooood!!! The prawns were so fresh!! AHHHH!!! Haha...
We used the countdown show as a timer, then we all counted down to 2007. It was a great party, apart from the small issues which totally pissed me off. But since its New Year's Day, I shall not go into small things like that.
We didn't sleep the whole night, 4 guys laughing as they played cards. So now I'm wasted man. Think I'll sleep early and then wake up early tomorrow to study and clear all the homework due on wed!!
A year has passed, a year has gone.
The time we spent shall never be lost.
A new year comes, a new year beckons,
What surprises are in store? We all wonder.
A change of luck, a change of heart?
Time will tell, In the new year's dwell.
snorfed at
11:38 PM
What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.
You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself.
Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.
snorfed at
11:29 PM