snorfed at
1:44 PM
Damn. I wrote a post about the stupid block tests and it got wiped out before I could save. That sarks(new spelling I picked up from Timo). And at this very moment, I am repairing the stupid connection cause it keeps breaking down.
Its really pouring down outside. My favourite weather at the best time. Rainstorm. At night. When I'm at home.
The rhythmic pitter-pattering of rain drops on my windowsil punctuated by the occasional flash of lightning and crash of thunder sounds so relaxing. I have no idea why some people are afraid of thunder. Its just sound. They should be afraid of lightning. You can die from a lightning strike but not thunder. haha..
Today I went down to VJ to watch Timo's audition. Actually in my opinion they were not bad. Played Smooth by Carlos Santana. But they heard from some other people that they didn't manage to get into Musicfest. Poor things. They looked so dejected. Xi Wen went with me, but she left coz she had to work.
Working at Settlers sounds like a lot of fun. From what I hear, you teach people how to play the games, serve food, mingle with the customers and sometimes play with them. So cool. A place for people to play boardgames. No wonder she works each time she's free.
My IS got to amend because Cambridge not happy with the way I wrote it. Then now must change so that it'll sound more KI-ish. Wtf man. This totally sarks. Then must resubmit summore. Gonna waste a lot of time. Feel like a Mocha latte.
Well...buhbye people who read this...
Listen to the rain.
It'll soothe your pain.
For when you lose some,
The world you gain.
Its not much of a game.
Where tides ebb and wane.
Cigarette smoke weaves a web,
For lions to lose their mane.
snorfed at
11:40 PM
It seems like I waited a bit too long. I probably lost. Along with many other things recently, I don't think this is much to add on to my pile of recent failures and disappointments.
But I'll be a man about it. Push on dude!! I want to thank all my friends who have been there for me even when I'm a jerk most of the time.
They said you can't lose what you never had, and yet it still feels so bad... What a cool line. I'm such a genius. I don't think I'll cry about this. Maybe I should just go sms to ask? Nah...
Plaster on a smile, shake hands, don't let the armour crack. You are strong.
snorfed at
10:51 PM
Hello blog. I'm back to update you. I have a shitty cough that gives me headaches because I cough till I get them. Its really hot out but staying in an air-con room is bad for my cough so it really sucks. But I'm doing fine, apart from having to go down to the clinic tomorrow to get more cough medicine.
I have no discipline whatsoever. I can't focus on mugging for longer than 2 minutes at a time. So, since I didn't really study really hard for the chem test, I shouldn't really complain about my S right?
WRONG!!! I should be mad at myself for not studying..But you know something? I take so many things in my stride that things that should matter, well, don't.
I can't decide if that is a good or bad thing. Rolling with things. Flexibility and free-ness..if there is such a word. Ahh, what the heck. I'll go to sleep since I'm still sick.
I'll try to upload the song next week ok, blog? Nite nite..
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little harder to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy
Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
snorfed at
11:57 PM
This kinda sucks. We got our 'A' level chinese results back, and I got a C. I was expeting an A or a B at least cause I was damn confident that I did pretty well for the paper. Sian. Well at least it doesn't matter. It'll serve as a warning for y other subjects. I don't really want to resit the paper. Too much trouble. The time can be put to better use. Mum was not as cool about it as I had thought she would be. Still, the decision is mine to make. I'll think about it tomorrow.
Not that I'm rebellious or anything. Too old for that crap. Its more like I'm in charge of my life most of the time that they let me make alot of decisions by myself as long as I discuss it with them first(if its like something not small)...haha..I go around and I hear people complaining about how their parents drive them mad. If you can't handle them shouting, do what I do. Tell them firmly but politely that the shouting does not help. Then reply them in a softer voice. It works till I get pissed then I try to control my volume. haha..
Now my life revolves around mugging and slacking in obvious opposites. Havent jammed in a few months. Really sad to think that the band might not last the year. Could it have been a mistake(s) on my part? Pretty sadded.
No guts.
No inclination.
No words.
No ideas.
No explanation.
Too full of turmoil.
Too full of arrogance.
Too full of conflicts.
Too full of fear.
Too full of pain.
Filled to the brim.
Emptied to the bottom.
Both at the same time.
A square circle.
Oxymoronic system.
I'm going to try to upload my new fave song. Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. The acoustic version is nicer in my lousy opinion.
Off to mug bio. cheers...
snorfed at
10:45 PM